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[♥ Friday
Apr 20.07 ♥ 04:48P]
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Apr 20.07 ♥ 04:44P]
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[♥ Wednesday
Jul 26.06 ♥ 12:49P]
I have a new username.
I will no longer be updating on this one.
The new one is www.o0_melomane_0o.livejournal.com if that link doesn't work, you can always do www.livejournal.com/users/o0_melomane_0o

It's friends only, so you'll have to comment to be added
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[♥ Monday
Jul 24.06 ♥ 06:24P]
1. Open your music player (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For every question type the song that's playing.
5. When you go to a new question press the next button.
6. Some songs fit perfectly, some don't!

OPENING CREDITS: Weird Al- I Was Only Kidding
WAKING UP: John Williams- Fluffy's Harp
FALLING IN LOVE: Avenue Q- My Girlfriend who Live in Canada
FIGHT SCENE: Aladdin- A Whole New World
BREAKING UP: Oklahoma- Many a New Day
GETTING BACK TOGETHER: Beauty and the Beast- Beauty and the Beast
SECRET LOVE: Click Five- Just the Girl I'm Looking For
LIFE'S OKAY: The Nightmare Before Christmas- Nabbed
MENTAL BREAKDOWN: Back to Titanic- Come Josephine
DRIVING FLASHBACK: Evita- Don't Cry for Me Argentina
PARTYING: Rent- Mimi is Dying
HAPPY DANCE: Larry the Cable Guy- Ode to Titties and Beer
REGRETTING: J. Strauss- Odglosy Wiosny (Swan Lake, I think)
LONG NIGHT ALONE: Phantom of the Opera- Angel of Music
THE NEXT MORNING: N. Rimski- Korsakow- Lot Trzmiela (Flight of the Bumble Bee, I think)
FINAL BATTLE: Judy Garland- A Foggy Day
DEATH SCENE: The Killer, Smile like you mean it.
END CREDITS: Wicked- I'm not that Girl
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Promizzle [♥ Monday
May 15.06 ♥ 08:48P]
Prom was
Prom itself,

The party after,
was awesome.

Lots to tell.
But I'm too tired to tell it.
Slept in till three on Sunday.
Got my mom a rose today.
I'm so belated.


I'll post more later.
If I remember.
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Life in the advertisment lane... [♥ Friday
May 12.06 ♥ 01:13P]
Ah yes, I have at last whored myself to coorporate america in order to get more user pics and voice posts.
Nothing much to post.
I ate too much yesturday.
Planned on fasting today.
Didn't happen.
At pop-tarts for breakfast.
A sub for lunch.
Blech. Eating too much sucks.

Sort of not excited for prom anymore.
Dunno why.
Maybe because Kody is being stupid.
But I'll still have fun.
I'm tired.
It's fifth hour.
I've been staring at a computer for an hour.
I don't miss the feeling.

I think I'll clean my room tonight.
Then play some Sims.
Sleep in till eight.
Then go help my mom clean a house.
Get my hair done.
Get my nails done.
Get ready.
Go to Prom.
Then sleep in, really really late.
Maybe until ten.
Maybe until noon.
Who knows?

My bed is really comfortable.
I hate getting up in the morning.
It's too cold.
My bed is warm.
I like my bed.
Sleeping in is nice.
Ever so nice.

Drum Major interviews on Monday and Tuesday.
*crosses fingers*
I hope I do well.
I'm really anxious.

I'm starting a new school routing.
Get up.
Practice singing in practice room for a half hour.
Go to library.
Go home.

Hopefully, I'll actually do it.

Many birthdays are coming up.
I got invited to a senior party.
Last year I had six invites.
This year I only have one.
Sad, right?
I know lots of seniors.
Kristin, Katie, Anna... to name a few.

I have an essay I didn't do.
Actually, I have two.

I need to get on top of it.
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onto phase four [♥ Wednesday
May 10.06 ♥ 10:10P]
What is phase four you ask?
Well, it's the next phase of my life.
Phase three, the divorce/depression/emo/oh-woe-is-me phase of my lfie.
Phase four?
Phase four is amazing, wondeful,

I'm ready, and I've got a sunny disposition.
And yes, I've still got a few rants up my sleave,
but now they're considerably less,

I've got this last year to prepare
To prepare myself to
the next big thing
oN broadway.

Fity seven colleges to sift through.
To decide.
To audition for.
To pay for.
To sing for.
To live for.

Where would I be without music?
Considerably less happy.
Less enthused.
Less me.

Music opens my soul.
It does something horribly
but in a good way.
cliches have never been good for
But this one is.
It's weird.
It works.
It makes sense.

And yet,
it's not a cliche.
It's something completely new.
Something just for me.
That feeling.
That complete euphoria.

Life sucks.
Life doesn't suck.

Think about it.
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[♥ Monday
May 08.06 ♥ 01:08P]
Radio carbon dating determines the age of ancient objects by means of measuring the amount of carbon-14 there is left in an object. A man called Willard F Libby pioneered it at the University of Chicago in the 50's. In 1960, he won the Nobel Prize for Chemistry. This is now the most widely used method of age estimation in the field of archaeology. 

^ Yay for chem.  

Band auditions tomorrow.
Cross your fingers.
Two(one) open slot(s)
Ten(one million) auditioners.
One(lonely) girl.
Yeah, the odds are like a gagillion to one.
But yeah, I'm still auditioning.

I'm tired.
Been staring at the computer for almost an hour for chem.
I hate staring at computers.
I used to do that a lot.
Then Alex stopped talking to me.
And I realized I really was only ever on it to talk to him.
So I stopped.
And not using the computer has made life more awesome.

I went on a two hour walk,
instead of a two hour internet fest.
It was amazing.
I loved it.
Yes, I have sunburn.
Yes, I'm sort of sore.
I loved it.
Absolutely loved it.

One thing I don't like right now:
My sunburn.
Making me feel hot.
There's a breeze.
I can't feel it.

Three minutes to go.
The bell's gonna ring.
Go to Brit Lit.
Talk about 1984.

Then choir.
Who knows?
We have a concert in two weeks.
Are we ever going to learn the new music?
Who knows?

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Planes, Trains, and Automobiles [♥ Friday
May 05.06 ♥ 04:12P]
So yeah, the ballroom dance was absolutely awesome. I think I migh have already made a post about it, but I don't know. It's been so long since I've been at a computer. So much life can happen when one is not on a computer. I love it!

So, a really hot guy named Matt, noticed I was...er...scoping him out, so to speak at the ballroom dance, and asked my friend Brittany(who works with him coincidentally) why I didn't just ask him to dance and stuff. My reasoning was I was too scared and he surrounded by REALLY REALLY hot girls.

Prom is nex week. My dress is all fixed and pretty. The zipper broke, so my grandma put a new, short zipper in and then made it look like a corset style back and added straps to make it like a halter top. I'm so excited.

So yeah, at one point this week I had TWO dates to prom! Crazy, no? Of course, no offence to my lovely friends, they were not, so to speak the pick of the litter. Lars and Kody. Lars asked me, and was still trying to swallow the idea of "date" when I said, yes. Then I told Kody, and he got all upset saying we were going as a date. And I said, "No, we aren't." Kodey: Say's who? Me: You, did actually. Kody: Well, I changed my mind, I already ordered your corsage.

So yeah, I had to tell Lars I already had a date, but I got him to go with Liz, so all is good.

We had a choir concert last night, and I did pretty bad. Then we were practicing today for the state contest tomorrow, and I totally made progress. As in, major progress, as in, I was amazing. w00t.

I'm trying out for drum major again, after I said last year I'd never do it again. I've been working with Rob, and he says I'm doing good. He told me what to work on, and I wrote it down, and then proceeded to say I'm probably a loser for writing it down, and he said no, it was a good thing. So yeah, maybe I will be going to band camp this summer and wear the ugly dresses and white feathers!!

Blah. I'm tired. I have no idea why. Probably, I'm just lazy. LOL.

But yeah, mono, mumps, and menenjitus is going around my school. Poor Erin has mono and hasn't been at school for a while. Maknig me the only second clarinet. Much fun to be had there.

Oh! So yeah, we're playing LORD OF THE RINGS in band, and there's this part, where only I have this one melody thingy , and it's the harp cues, and right after he cut us off after that one part, I was about to go, "Does anyone else have this besides me?" Mr. Medd goes, "I HEARD YOU!" I kind of jumped and looked at him funny, and was like, no that's good. Play out a bit more, and this time, play off the first beat. It's one and *hand motion* But yeah, it was freaky when it happened.

I'm going to make a get well card for the lovely Erin. Band is lonely without my lover. I have no one to eat my hair and make obscene gestures to. Well, the latter I still have people to do.

And now I'm becoming inchoherent.

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[♥ Monday
Apr 24.06 ♥ 03:55P]
So, I think I found what my DI for next year is going to be. That's right, next year. I'm getting a head start, besides I want to be awesome in my craziness. I think I'll do "Breathe." It's about this girl who becomes a stalker to her best friend. It sounds really cool so far. It'll be really difficult cutting it down to ten minutes though. But I'm excited.

I bought Kody and my prom tickets today. They came with Tatooes. Tres cool. We're going to pimp out Liz's mini-van and use that instead of a limo. We're all going to Party after prom. We're all uper excited now.

Life, in general is good. Except, Austin stole my seat today, and I had to sit next to the sharpner. Needless to say, as expected, and totally on accident, I wacked my head against it several times. I actually participated a good deal today. Stuff about the difference between federalism and seperation of powers. Elementary, really.

I have a list of about fifty one colleges I like, or actually have musical theatre. My favorite ones, of course, are Ithaca College and The Boston Conservatory. I'm all a shivers as I get everything ready for applications and such. Actually, I'm thinking about for two years or so, going to an acting school that only costs a few thousand and then transferring. Good idea, no?

Wow, the librarians are really helpful, almost overly so. I just asked for a book about someone who's off-hilter. (Insane) and they spend a half hour doing all this crazy stuff. It's funny. But, they're nice. Generally. Well, Mrs. Niles is. (*send virtual hug to Mrs. Niles*) The other ones are kind of Nazis. e.g. When they kicked us out.

Apparently, the ballroom dance is this weekend. Austin and I must prepare. He asked me last week when it was, and I didn't know. Clearly, we shall have to plan. (Weird...Mrs. Niles just walked by and was like, "You look really pale in that picture"...referring to my user icon thingy. Might I note that I have always been scarily pale?)

So yeah, this summer is sort of up in the air right now. Lots going on. Oh, Lists are fun, here's a list.

Arizona.(Seattle, California)(Clare & DJ)
Georgia\New York. (AKA. Aunt Stacey)
Wisconsin (Aunt Beth)
LeClaire (Grandmpa and Poppa)
YPC: Young People's Company
Northwestern Acting Conference/Workshoping thingamajig
Basic Training for Army
Home? Home? Home? *ponders* Is staying home even an option? I think I've only spent one summer and home, and I was dreadfully lost. Heh, it does wreak havoc on some of my friendships though. Lots of catching up to do. LOL.

So, I'll post more later. I have to go, or I'll miss the bus.
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[♥ Friday
Apr 21.06 ♥ 03:39P]
Brought to you by: Amanda

You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what ? this is a part of your character and charm.

You are experiencing considerable difficulty trying to achieve your goals. As a consequence of this you are becoming more and more irritable. Your friends and acquaintances are finding it increasingly more difficult to appease or to reason with you. You are the cause of your own problems. Don't be so impulsive. It is your vacillation that can lead to problems and uncertainties. Ease up a little.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

It would seem that an existing situation or relationship is unsatisfactory and you feel that there is little that you can do about it without 'some help from your friends', but you have no desire to show the world how vulnerable you really are and therefore you consider it inadvisable to display affection or be over demonstrative. You regard this particular relationship as a depressing tie and although you would like to be independent and unhampered, you don't want to run the risk of losing anything. All this leads you to react 'touchily' and with impatience, while the urge to 'get away from it all' results in considerable restlessness and stress. Your ability to concentrate may suffer.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time. You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer - MOVE!

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Quizes, to get my mind of Thursday night. [♥ Saturday
Apr 15.06 ♥ 10:23A]

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things.

Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life.

You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation.

You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon.

Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall.

You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others.

At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults.

Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion.

A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

You Are Marge Simpson

You're a devoted family member who loves unconditionally.

Sometimes, though, you dream about living a wild secret life!

You will be remembered for: your good cooking and evading the police

Your life philosophy: "You should listen to your heart, and not the voices in your head."

You Are Austin

A little bit country, a little bit rock and roll.

You're totally weird and very proud of it.

Artistic and freaky, you still seem to fit in... in your own strange way.

Famous Austin residents: Lance Armstrong, Sandra Bullock, Andy Roddick

You Are 40% Abnormal

You are at high risk for being a psychopath. It is very likely that you have no soul.

You are at high risk for having a borderline personality. It is very likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at low risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is unlikely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at low risk for having a social phobia. It is unlikely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

Oh snap,I am addicted to hand sanitizer!

Your Daddy Is Dennis Rodman

What You Call Him: Papito

Why You Love Him: He knows best

You Are 72% Addicted to Myspace

Your Myspace addiction factor is: High

You are officially addicted to Myspace. It's quite possible you haven't seen a real person in days.

Your Seduction Style: The Natural

You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.

Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.

You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!

People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast.

Your Quirk Factor: 76%

You're so quirky, it's hard for you to tell the difference between quirky and normal.

No doubt about it, there's little about you that's "normal" or "average."

Your Birth Month is January

You are a natural leader who is able to stand up when no one else can.

Strong and powerful, you tend to overshadow those around you.

Your soul reflects: deep love, fascination with life, and a distinctive persona

Your gemstone: Garnet

Your flower: Snowdrop

Your colors: Black, dark red, and dark blue

You Are Animal

A complete lunatic, you're operating on 100% animal instincts.

You thrive on uncontrolled energy, and you're downright scary.

But you sure can beat a good drum.

"Kill! Kill!"

You Belong in Paris

You enjoy all that life has to offer, and you can appreciate the fine tastes and sites of Paris.

You're the perfect person to wander the streets of Paris aimlessly, enjoying architecture and a crepe.

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.

Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...

But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.

You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

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[♥ Thursday
Apr 13.06 ♥ 02:41P]
Ashley, Love vs. Honor is your primary love story!

Love vs. Honor is the most dramatic love story of all — defined by an innate tug of war between what you want to do and what you should do. There is something coming between you and love. Perhaps it's a religious conviction, a previous commitment, family, patriotic duty, or deep belief that good things only come at a terrible price.

If you're looking for examples you can start back with the Greek myths where heroes were often forced to give up love and the comforts of home for battles in far-off lands. In Charles Dickens' "Great Expectations," Estella chooses to obey her benefactress and break Pip's heart, even though she deeply regrets doing so. Political obligations and previous relationships tear Humphrey Bogart and Ingrid Bergman apart in the unforgettable film, "Casablanca."

In your love story, you find your soul mate, only to discover you can't be together unless you give up something precious, or jeopardize other relationships or ideals that are important to you. The decision itself is at the heart of your story. How do you choose? If this is your one chance at true love, can anything be worth giving it up? Can you enjoy love knowing you've betrayed something dear to you to achieve it? Or will the love be stronger for your sacrifice? This love story is about confronting your values and life choices. It's about reevaluating what's important to you and choosing to remain on the same path or move in a new direction.

If you've devoted yourself to long-term academic study or a consuming career that demands longevity in order to succeed — careers like medicine, law, business — you might feel you're letting yourself down if you throw yourself off-track with a relationship. Do you have a family member for whom choice of religion, career, or social position is a really big deal? Are you afraid to disappoint them if your partner doesn't match the mold?

In the movie, "The End of the Affair," Julianne Moore plays a woman who makes a pact with God to stop cheating on her husband if her lover survives a terrible injury. When he lives, she's forced to keep her promise, breaking both their hearts in the process. All relationships, at some point or another, require sacrifices. These painful decisions are familiar to everyone. No wonder it's so easy to relate to this story's historical, literary, and cinematic counterparts. You're living it!

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[♥ Wednesday
Apr 12.06 ♥ 03:35P]
It would be a lie if I were to say it is with deepest sympathy that I make myself get over him. I simply refuse to care anymore. Because really, what's the point? I'm seventeen, he's eighteen. I live in Iowa, he lives in Washington. We'll never actually meet, so why even bother? I have a lot of good reasons for me to get over him, really I do. They just refuse to come to me right now.

I need to make a lot of changes with my life. It's just not working out right now. I've no idea where I want to go from here. And even here, I don't like. I need to start applying myself before I ruin any chance at a future.

All I know, is I want to do something that has a level of passion that I can't find anywhere else. The only places I come close to finding the sort of passion I'm looking for is with musical theatre. *sighs* But I know, I'll never make anything in that career. I can't sing. Well, I can, just not well.

All I know is that I'm not content with life right now. That's not to say I'm not happy. I am, very much so. But I just yearn for something else, something I'm not experiencing. Something my entire body is aching for. I feel so claustrophobic in the life that I lead right now.

Sometimes I hate livejournal, or any blog I suppose. I mean, a lot of times I put stuff on here, so people will tell me what they think. But, no one ever comments. *shrugs* It's not that I mind. Well, actually I do kind of. I guess it feels like there's no one out there. And I know that's not true, and I know I'm probably being insecure, but that's how it feels. I'd like to say that's somethign I can't help, but I know that I can. At least, I'm sure that's what all the self-help books that are out there say.

Meh. I'm in one of those happy/depressed moods. I don't know what to think right now.
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...and in that moment, I swear we were infinate [♥ Friday
Apr 07.06 ♥ 04:16P]
Indeed, infinant is the only way in which to describe my current state of mind. I happy. I'm content. I want nothing more than to be here. It's true that if you're unhappy, it's because you want to be. I don't want to be unhappy, I refuse to be unhappy. The day's to long and my spirit too high to keep me from being happy. It's an odd sort of thing realizing that what you've been searching for is right under your nose. I could be philosophical right now, and ruin my moment with words, but the moment's too long, and words aren't needed.
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[♥ Sunday
Apr 02.06 ♥ 11:12A]

You Are Right Brained In Love

Bit of a drama queen

Peacemaker, first to end a fight

Good at thinking up creative dates

Tend to fall in love and get hurt easily

Going with your gut instead of your head

Emphathetic and caring, sometimes to a fault

Good at recognizing patterns in relationships

Been in love many times, perhaps too many to count

Wildly passionate and intense when falling in love

Spontaneous with relationships, going with the flow

Overly visual - can play back past dates like movies in your mind

Roses, love poems, and stuffed animals are a good start to winning your heart

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[♥ Saturday
Apr 01.06 ♥ 09:57P]

Your Stripper Song Is

My Humps by the Black Eyed Peas

"Whatcha gonna do with all that junk

All that junk inside that trunk.

I'ma get get get get you drunk

Get you love drunk off my hump "

You get a lot more than Seven jeans for your humps.

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[♥ Friday
Mar 31.06 ♥ 09:08P]

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Physical Touch.

Complete set of results

Quality Time: 11
Physical Touch: 8
Words of Affirmation: 7
Acts of Service: 3
Receiving Gifts: 1


Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz
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[♥ Monday
Mar 27.06 ♥ 08:58P]
So yeah.

It sucks.


Well, not all life.

It just feels like it.

A lot.

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[♥ Wednesday
Mar 22.06 ♥ 03:45P]
So, yeah. It's been a while.
I miss the internet.
I miss Sabrina and Alex.
I don't have much time to write stuff.
I'm tired.
With a headache.
This update sucks.
But Kody's being an ass and distracting me.
I'll go now.
And update good stuff.
I promise.
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